I miss you bro, tmrw we will be 43, I will do a toast and send you birthday wishes just as always. Grief has eased now..for everyone gone, because weve lost so many loved ones it kind of all turns into one big ball of grief that bounces into your head every so often, mainly big occasions, christmas, birthdays, births, deaths etc. The shock and pain wears thin now which leaves way to remember freely the good times we shared, centre parcs holidays spring to mind, going down the Rapids laughing so much, all 3 of us, me, you and chris, sat decorating the dolls house with christmas decorations, the silly games we used to make up and play for hours, it all now puts a smile on my face instead of soul shaking pain and crying, it still happens occasionally but nowhere near like before. I am doing well and enjoying life with my 3 kids. I love you and I would do anything to spend another day with you, 12 years ago, I can remember the day so clearly like it was yesterday, I hope you are ok, i can only imagine ❤