darling, yesterday was the first anniversary of your death and today would have been your 32nd birthday. If you were here we would have gone out and had a few drinks and something to eat for your birthday so today me, your mum, your dad and my mum went out and had lunch. We had good memories to talk about. Caitlin missed you terribly yesterday as we all did. I wondered if i should have got a birthday card for you really and i should have got some white lillies for you in the frontroom, maybe i will get you some tomorrow because i know how you love white lillies. I have put two white lillies in with your apple tree and those 2 that you planted still come through every year. Anyway, night night for now my sweet xx